I keep a blog of sorts. I have since I was 18, on livejournal. But i feel like i should perhaps move my mommy rants onto a new forum. Technically, my mommy rants are pretty much my only rants recently. Elliot just takes so much of my time and each and every day i'm enjoying him more and more. you hear people say that when they see their babies they instantly fall in love? well, sure-- i instantly fell in love with elliot, but it has taken me a while to LIKE him. the first month and a half were extremely exhausting and traumatic for me. hormones attacked me, he was nawing my boobs away on a two hourly basis and i felt guilty because i still wanted to hang out with my dog more than i wanted to spend time with elliot. but then something happened. i became slowly addicted to him. and now it comforts me that i'm the only one that he will settle down for. like OMG he NEEDS me. and i, in turn, NEED him. its crazy how that happens.
so right now he's asleep on my shoulder (as he does for this mid-morning naps). and i'm surfing the internet for jobs. so perhaps i'll document my daily poopings, rashes, giggles and bath time. i also am interested in starting to do stitching or something into onesies. shit, i still need to finish up his christmas stocking.
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I felt the same way when our daughter Kenya was born. It took so long to deliver her I didn't even want to see her when she came out. After a few minutes I wanted to see her but I didn't bond with her right away. I always loved her but not the "this is my baby and I cant get enough of her" kind of love. But that came with time. I love that girl more than I could describe! Have a gerat day!
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